I'm having a rough time now ... I have to learn to move on life without *him ... But I still don't understand why he is so cruel? so heartless? After all we've been through, he gave me up just like that ... He ended it just like that, believe or not?

I know it will take a very very very long time for me to forget him, I will try to let go now but deep down inside my heart I still hope that we can still be together again. I still miss him ... there are memories of us everywhere on the streets, wherever I go memories of us just keep flashing back in my mind, I told myself to forget it but it's hard. I'm a human too, he needs love and understanding but so do I. Why can't he just understand how I feels?

To Met and Monz: Don't feel bad, I know it's hard for both of you too. What happen to me had already happened, reality is always so hurtful. Thanks to all my friends and my family who are here supporting me. I really appreciate it.

Although he is not with me anymore, protecting me, for me to rely on ... I still have to try to stand up on my own. Since leaving me was his decision, I cannot do anything but to respect his decision and to see him leaving me with someone else with my own eyes. It really hurts but i really cannot do anything to it. I might be at faults too, but it's not only my fault ... why can't he just understand? Can't he understand my insecurities? Always don't want to listen.

When things happened, he told me not to cry, I really want to shout at him saying how I fucking wished I could cry ... the blow is so hard for me that I couldn't even forced a single teardrop out. I really wish I could fucking cry my heart out. He is tearing my heart into million pieces it hurts alot and I cannot even cry but to feel the pain. Every word he said to me, every sentences were like a knife stabbed in my heart. But does he know how hurt I am? I'm hurting more than him. He told me he does not want me to suffer with him for so long ... don't know it is the truth or not ... just leaving me all alone living in hell to suffer. Damn it!

Everybody can feel the pain in me ... My mummy, sis, cousin and Met cried for me because they knew I'm hurting inside but I can't vent it out. I couldn't cry ... My chest feels so tight that I wanted to take a hammer and smash it, my heart hurts so much so that I wanted to dig it out. Everyone was so worried for me. Damn!

Guys are jerks! All promises they made are just empty promises! They can make you so happy till you can fly and suddenly drop you down with a loud 'BLAM', it really hurts.

Time will heal all wounds, but there will be deep scars left in my heart. No matter how hurt I'm feeling, I still have to put up a brave front. Monz was right, I was the one who keep complaining hungry all the time, but I couldn't eat nor drink, I really have no appetite.

I hope I can find my Mr Right soon, who will always be there for me, who loves me more than I love him, someone I can rely on. I hope after this failed relationship, there won't be another one, it's so hard for me to take the blow.

If he wants to come back to me, I'll be the most happy person, most willing to accept him. I can forgive him but I will never forget. I will change for the better! Yes, I WiLL!This is a promise I've made and I'm gonna make that happen! I'm not waiting for him intentionally, but let nature take its course. If he was meant to be mine, he will be mine eventually. Fate had let me meet him, but I guess our fate stops here.

I believe that, God gave me something good and take it back from me, God will give me something even better. Time will tell although it's very hard to let go now.

I sound contradicting, part of me is trying to let go, part of me still wants to be with him ... It is driving me crazy!

I'm having a rough time now ... I have to learn to move on life without *him ... But I still don't understand why he is so cruel? so heartless? After all we've been through, he gave me up just like that ... He ended it just like that, believe or not?

I know it will take a very very very long time for me to forget him, I will try to let go now but deep down inside my heart I still hope that we can still be together again. I still miss him ... there are memories of us everywhere on the streets, wherever I go memories of us just keep flashing back in my mind, I told myself to forget it but it's hard. I'm a human too, he needs love and understanding but so do I. Why can't he just understand how I feels?

To Met and Monz: Don't feel bad, I know it's hard for both of you too. What happen to me had already happened, reality is always so hurtful. Thanks to all my friends and my family who are here supporting me. I really appreciate it.

Although he is not with me anymore, protecting me, for me to rely on ... I still have to try to stand up on my own. Since leaving me was his decision, I cannot do anything but to respect his decision and to see him leaving me with someone else with my own eyes. It really hurts but i really cannot do anything to it. I might be at faults too, but it's not only my fault ... why can't he just understand? Can't he understand my insecurities? Always don't want to listen.

When things happened, he told me not to cry, I really want to shout at him saying how I fucking wished I could cry ... the blow is so hard for me that I couldn't even forced a single teardrop out. I really wish I could fucking cry my heart out. He is tearing my heart into million pieces it hurts alot and I cannot even cry but to feel the pain. Every word he said to me, every sentences were like a knife stabbed in my heart. But does he know how hurt I am? I'm hurting more than him. He told me he does not want me to suffer with him for so long ... don't know it is the truth or not ... just leaving me all alone living in hell to suffer. Damn it!

Everybody can feel the pain in me ... My mummy, sis, cousin and Met cried for me because they knew I'm hurting inside but I can't vent it out. I couldn't cry ... My chest feels so tight that I wanted to take a hammer and smash it, my heart hurts so much so that I wanted to dig it out. Everyone was so worried for me. Damn!

Guys are jerks! All promises they made are just empty promises! They can make you so happy till you can fly and suddenly drop you down with a loud 'BLAM', it really hurts.

Time will heal all wounds, but there will be deep scars left in my heart. No matter how hurt I'm feeling, I still have to put up a brave front. Monz was right, I was the one who keep complaining hungry all the time, but I couldn't eat nor drink, I really have no appetite.

I hope I can find my Mr Right soon, who will always be there for me, who loves me more than I love him, someone I can rely on. I hope after this failed relationship, there won't be another one, it's so hard for me to take the blow.

If he wants to come back to me, I'll be the most happy person, most willing to accept him. I can forgive him but I will never forget. I will change for the better! Yes, I WiLL!This is a promise I've made and I'm gonna make that happen! I'm not waiting for him intentionally, but let nature take its course. If he was meant to be mine, he will be mine eventually. Fate had let me meet him, but I guess our fate stops here.

I believe that, God gave me something good and take it back from me, God will give me something even better. Time will tell although it's very hard to let go now.

I sound contradicting, part of me is trying to let go, part of me still wants to be with him ... It is driving me crazy!

With soft gray eyes she gloomed and glowered;
With soft red lips she sang a song:
What knight might gaze upon her face,
Nor fare along?


For all her looks were full of spells,
And all her words, of sorcery;
And in some way they seemed to say,
"Oh, come with me! oh, come with me!
Oh, come with me, my love, Sir Kay!"--


How should he know the witch, I trow,
Morgan La Fey?


-- Cawein, Madison J. (1865-1914), "Morgan La Fey"

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